The first days home

Well, here we are. Today is my first day all on my own with Ethan. Darrell had to go back to work and also has school tonight so it's a long one. Yesterday we were home alone for several hours while Darrell went to school in the evening and while it went fine, I was totally exhausted by the end of the day.
Today has been better though. I haven't had a shower and my shirt became a burp cloth long ago but I actually found time to heat up a meal and pour some juice :) I've been feeling pretty guilty for how bad the house is getting, even in just two days home from the hospital. I guess it's part of the highs and lows they warn you about because earlier I was ready to cry about it and I am far from a "cleanie." I've never been overly particular about the house but now that I can't even keep things at an acceptable level I feel horrible for the pressure that's being put on Darrell. I know that it won't be this way for too long, but right now even the simplest things wear me out and the satisfaction of doing them isn't worth it.
Other than that though, I'm in a total state of euphoria. I can't stop looking at, touching, feeling and smelling my little man. When we nurse I just can't bear to put him down after he's asleep. He isn't really a fan of sleeping when I try, so I just hold him. I can't get enough cuddling him, or staring at his sweet little expressions while he dreams. He's really a very good baby so far - the first night in the hospital was hard but apparently there was nothing to worry about. Eat, sleep, poop, repeat is his life motto. He really doesn't fuss much, unless I"m changing his diaper. He's actually slept really well at night as well, albeit in our bed. I'm too sore to get up and shift him into the bassinet so we just let him stay. Darrell even set up a light for me this morning before he left so that we won't have to leave the bathroom light on all night.
I couldn't have even imagined it would be like this.
I have yet to post the birth story. I have some of it written but I want to get all the details straight and into it before I post. Just a warning... it'll be long!